Regretful Gray

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Neutral, heavy goodbyes in regretful gray

My dad is dying. He wants to reconcile. But I...

My dad is dying. He wants to reconcile. But I remember who he was when he was strong. When he hit me. When he screamed....

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— The One Who Survived

I lied about being clean. I've been using. Hiding...

I lied about being clean. I've been using. Hiding it. Functioning. You think I'm sober. Think I'm recovered. Think I'm ...

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— The One Who Lied Daily

You called drunk last night. Said you miss me....

You called drunk last night. Said you miss me. Said you made a mistake. I didn't know what to say. We're divorced. You'...

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— Two Decades Over

Our anniversary would have been this week....

Our anniversary would have been this week. Twenty-two years. I almost texted you. Almost sent a message. Almost broke t...

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— Learning Solo

I sleep on both sides of the bed now. Trying to...

I sleep on both sides of the bed now. Trying to claim the whole space. But I still wake up on my side. Expecting to see...

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— The One Who Left

I saw our wedding video yesterday. Found it...

I saw our wedding video yesterday. Found it cleaning the basement. We looked so young. So in love. So certain we'd make...

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— The Settlement

You asked to meet for coffee. To talk. To catch...

You asked to meet for coffee. To talk. To catch up. To reconnect. I said yes. Then regretted it. Then went anyway. It ...

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— Once a Family

I signed the papers yesterday. My hand shook the...

I signed the papers yesterday. My hand shook the whole time. Twenty-three years. Gone with a signature. The lawyer sai...

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— Your Ex-Wife

I've been lying about therapy. Said I'm going....

I've been lying about therapy. Said I'm going. Doing the work. Getting better. But I skip sessions. Lie to the therapis...

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— The Hypocrite

I never loved you. Not the way you loved me. I...

I never loved you. Not the way you loved me. I stayed because it was convenient. You were safe. Reliable. Always there....

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— Finally Admitting

My brother came out as gay. My family rejected...

My brother came out as gay. My family rejected him. I stayed with him. Now they reject me too. They said I'm "enabling ...

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— The Family Member Who Left

I ran into your sister. She hugged me. Started...

I ran into your sister. She hugged me. Started crying. Said she wished things were different. That she misses our famil...

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— Once Married

My family wants me to care for my aging parents....

My family wants me to care for my aging parents. But they abused me. I owe them nothing. "But they're family." "But the...

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— The Family That Broke

I gave you an STD. Knowingly. I was diagnosed....

I gave you an STD. Knowingly. I was diagnosed. Didn't tell you. Didn't protect you. You got sick. Got tested. Got treat...

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— The One Who Ruined It

My brother is a cop. I'm a civil rights activist....

My brother is a cop. I'm a civil rights activist. Our family dinners are a war zone. We can't talk. Can't find common g...

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— Your Estranged Parent

My extended family still talks to my estranged...

My extended family still talks to my estranged parent. Updates them on my life. Without asking. I cut contact for reaso...

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— Your Former Nephew

I sabotaged your job offer. The dream job. The...

I sabotaged your job offer. The dream job. The one you wanted so badly. Called the company. Anonymously. Raised concern...

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— The One Who Should Have Told You

You got remarried. I saw the Facebook photos. Six...

You got remarried. I saw the Facebook photos. Six months after our divorce was finalized. Like I was that easy to repla...

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— Your Ex-Husband

My parents are Jehovah's Witnesses. I left the...

My parents are Jehovah's Witnesses. I left the religion. They shunned me. Literally won't speak to me. Their religion r...

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— No Longer Part of This

Your mother called me. Said she misses me. That...

Your mother called me. Said she misses me. That she always considered me family. I cried. I didn't expect that. To lose...

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— After the Split