My siblings are all successful. I'm not. And my...

My siblings are all successful. I'm not. And my parents make sure I know I'm the disappointment. Every conversation is comparison. Every holiday is accomplishment talk. I have nothing to brag about. I'm trying. I'm surviving. I'm doing my best. But my best isn't impressive to them. I'm tired of feeling inadequate. Tired of being the family failure. Tired of apologizing for existing. I'd rather be alone and at peace than surrounded by family and feeling worthless.