I don't like goodbyes

I don't want to say goodbye. I'm tired of saying goodbyes to people, or people saying goodbye to me. Friends by choice, life changes, family that gives their last breath... Lovely pets that did as well... And now you... We had so much love to give each other. You ended helding it from me. While I held in you. When I held in you instead. Now you want this to end. Feel it did end. And want distance. But if you're still close, how can I give you that distance? How to expect no seeing each other again? How to no longer count in you? How can a relationship end... when bonds are still lingering there? Why can't we just morph our attachment into friendship? Let it be true? Why to end things? And mostly, why to say goodbye so fast?